i just bought a polka dot dress online (my last buy until the end of a's, i hope), and i can't wait for it to be in my arms. the seller just mailed it out today and i guess i should receive it latest thursday! YAYYY i'm so happy now.


was searching wikipedia just now for thursday's gp and i think it's very interesting. i just hope whatever shit i wrote down today would help me for thursday.

i can't wait to go shop after my exams, but what the boyfriend said has a point too. we should just take things slowly and not rush things like going shopping, squeezing with all those retards in the malls. yah, so we're going to whatever place i don't know yet. it's be his responsibility to think of where to bring me because he finishes FIVE days earlier. oh god, everytime i remind myself of that i feel sad. 5days leh! i can't whine enough.

ordered computer yesterday. DELL computer. 17" monitor not too bad. anything bigger no point la, as if my eyes as big as basketball like that. yayy delivery and gst and speakers and everything only $1110.90!! not like i'm paying for it, but i might offer paying the $10.90. hahahahahahahaha. can't wait, but it's not like i can use it anytime soon. but nvm, 20more days only!

painted my toes red last night. my exams are in less than 48hours and i went to paint my toes instead. yah, i'm going to pass with shit colours.

but my skills are getting better and better maybe i can go interview as a manicurist. HAHAHAHAHAHA. then i can paint my nails whenever i want to, for FREE somemore!

yayy last photo. i think i looked so cute.

i did math mock the other day i got 62/100 even though i skipped 2whole questions. can that really happen during a's? i mean, i've never gotten pass an O. maybe the paper was a morale booster. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

pray for me people! my sleeping hours are no good, i wake up at least 10times in the middle of the night. and i can't fall asleep easily. =(

I NEED A JOB. I'D PREFER A PART-TIME JOB THOUGH SO THAT MY HOURS CAN BE MORE FLEXIBLE, CAN SPEND MORE TIME EXERCISING AND SPENDING TIME WITH THE BOYFRIEND. BUT I THINK I'LL BE RATHER BOYFRIEND'ESS AFTER HE WORKS FOR THAT HORRIBLE HARRY AGAIN AND HAVE HIS INTERNAL CLOCK ALL MESSED UP. NOT FORGETTING THE NIGHTLY BAK KUT TEH FOR SUPPER. MAY EARN A LOT OF MONEY BUT WHAT'S THE USE. =((

YAH. to cut the long story short, i need to find a job early so that i can start after nov20.

anybody got lobang pls help this poor student here. best is those can pay at the end of the day one la. then i feel more 'safe' on my trip to bangkok where i can shop like i am a zillionaire there. i feel like robbing someone and spending like S$1000 on clothes. then the rest of the money i'll use on my california fitness membership, get a personal trainer the size of king kong to train me so that i can sweat those disgusting fats away. i feel so fat everywhere - even in my face. 5 months of not exercising is like taboo to me. cannot take it anymore!! what's the point in going shopping for clothes when i'm the size of princess fiona in SHREK? oh, shrek3 is coming! with sleeping beauty, red riding hood, cinderella, rapunzel and some other fugly characters like Rupunstilskin (if that's how you spell his name).

i keep getting out of point. somebody find me a job. i'm too lazy to go look for one.

i'll be free in 3weeks. just THREE WEEKS!!

the boyfriend is enlisted into the NAVAL DIVING UNIT for BMT. not the naval unit to do saikang. i was thinking maybe if he gets into the navy then do saikang not so bad. but naval diving unit!! OHMYFUCKINGGOD i am so sad. he's going to dive into the stupid sea and disable mines and bombs. what if he ends up with one leg only?! boohoohoo i am so scared. :(( no visits allowed during BMT, and if he stays in that stupid place after BMT he cannot bring in phone (which means that I can't talk to him at night), and he has to shave his head EVERY MONTH until he finishes his 2yrs. the only good things that may come out of it is that he will come out of army tanned like a tree bark, even more muscular than elton or the rock, and super good at swimming then maybe he can be a lifeguard like those men on baywatch. super tight red underwear. omg that would be so funny. heeee. but then, he enlists only in april (on friday the thirteenth). so we can work more and save more and even go to japan during end of winter so that we can buy clothes. YAYAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

5more days to Gp alevels. sucks man. 23days more to freedom. yayy man.

i finished WW1 and IR. kinda. cos i didn't write out any essays for IR. but YAYY i'm so happy. at least there's some progress. better than last week when all i had prepared for was maths, and i'm not exactly confident in it. =(

i need $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$. but i'm too lazy to work right after my a's. plus i want to work out before i go bangkok to pig out. yup, no HK for now. going to bangkok instead. longlonglong story, but everything's finalised and i'm quite happy. yayyyy. maybe i'll go HK next yr. come to think of it, no point going HK when it's winter. yup, in the mean time, i'll try to save alotalotalot of money so that i don't have to rely on others on my expenses. i'll be going in december, the weekend with my birthday. feel kinda sad that i can't celebrate my birthday with daddy. he may say he doesn't mind but i could hear from his response of 'then december8 how?' that he was kinda disappointed. blahhhhhh so sad now. but no choice cos all plans have been finalised and it's not nice to make so much changes when you're travelling with others with much of the plans accomodating me. =( so we're leaving on the 7th. haiz, i'll just celebrate earlier with them la. better than nothing right. plus i don't want to celebrate with them after i come back. AIYA nvm la, we'll see how it goes.

anw, pictures to brighten up my very boring blog.

hahahaha tried on this dress at a shop at hougang mall. but didn't buy it costs like 31dollars. plus everything i want to buy now bobby also don't let. but for the sake of my bangkok trip, i ren!

my latest masterpiece. hahahahaha. no wait, my toes latest. nice hor! yayy gothic. took damn long esp for my right hand because my left hand is like disabled. it took like 2hours during the whole movie of windtalkers and probably 20pieces of cottonwool before i finished both hands. now mummy also want me to help her paint her toenails. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

i'm such a big fat hypocrite i feel so disgusted at myself sometimes. but you're so irritating and such a spoilt brat that i can't stop myself from bitching about you at your every action.

Right now, I'm pretty much this size. Probably even bigger:


After another 30days, I'm going to play hard and exercise hard and achieve this:


Hahahaha ok la I don't think I can really do it because I don't have Marie France Bodyline or Xando or that Zapzap thing, but I'll try to have a drastic change to what I look now. *crosses fingers* hehhs. sighs, to think I expanded quite a lot since June this yr. I've been eating without exercising much, plus all the sitting down and studying. I have to eat unhealthy food (read: FAST FOOD) because stupid me simply cannot study well at home. BLAHHHHH I'm so depressed. These days, I have this throbbing headache after I study for a few hours. Which is like everyday. And it's no good because the stupid Alevels is only TWELVE days away. I'm so fcuking scared. I've never felt so scared for my entire life. Not even while waiting for Olevel results. Not even when I reported that sonfoabitch to the police station. Not even when I was stuck in the toilet and couldn't get out. OMG I seriously think I will screw up.

HAIZ. oh, another motivation to slim down after the A's is because I'm going to be a bridesmaid. hahahahahahahaha. which means I'm going to wear a freaking dress! but I can only get the dress like in January or late december when I'm decently slim, and the shops will be starting the CNY season with everything that is red or gold. Sian.

okla I'm going to attempt studying again. GO ANNA!! 30DAYS will be over soon! You waited 19yrs just for this.

Anw, I want to buy this:


I want to shopshopshop and buy clothes and shoes!
I want Alevels to disappear from my life right this minute.
I want to go Hongkong to experience the 'chi dong xi mai dong xi chi dong xi mai dong xi, zhen de ting bu xia lai' feeling. But I think I will have to go on my knees and beg for 7days before mummy will let me go. ohplsla I'm almost NINETEEN. speaking of my birthday, I want to go StarCruise on my birthday!
I want to go to Japan!! But I don't really want winter because I've already been to Japan twice during winter. But since the boyfriend wants to, we'll try to save money. =))

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THIRD major. i honestly think she thinks she's wonderwoman. mind you, she's already doing economics and physchology.

mummy baked apple pie at work and brought it home last night. nice, but the crumbs were a little dry and it felt like i was swallowing powder. niahahahaha.

can't even be bothered to count how many days i have left, i can't seem to even differentiate a weekday from a weekend now. guess i'll have to get used to this until uni starts. IF i actually get into one. omg la i'm so scared. i've been doing maths and maths and more maths since last monday. i've neglected practically everything else la. if i don't get A i think i will go kill myself. =( i really can't be bothered to care about grace's exams. i know it's my resposibility now that the sister's overseas, but hello! i have my Alevels. which do you think is more important at the present moment?

as usual, i can't wait for A's to finish so that i can go shop and play. feel like piling my face up with lots of skin and ask mummy to give me money to play. sigh. maybe i should ask daddy. *evil laugh*

oohlala havent blogged for more days than my pedicured toes can help me count. which is quite unlike me hurhurr. mainly because i don't have the laptop at home anymore, and also because i haven't been going to the boyfriend's house as often as i used to. the hours have been mainly spent on studying outside, while going home in the evenings to watch goong, and then some funny show on channel8 at 9. but then i don't really like the show because i can't stand local actors. blahhhhhhhh they all can't act la ok. either their chinese sucks or their face sucks. but pierre png is quite cute. LOL. but his chinese is like oh-so-sucky.

anw, you still have time to leave this blog cos this is going to a super chao-ji-wu-di long-winded entry. it's going to be whiney. really.

HAGGARD. (of a person) having dark areas around the eyes and lines on the face, esp. from being tired or from suffering. taken from dictionary.com.

OMG la that's what i'm described as when people saw me in church for 2consecutive weeks after i appeared in church after my prelims. oh thank you very much huh. i'm sure you look absolutely-fabulously-ridiculously radiant because you haven't been failing everything or getting borderline passes with absolutely no improvement for the yrs i've spent in meridian junior college and trying to get better than usual grades is like bi-deng-tian-hai-nan. quite like osama ever going to america to have afternoon tea with Bush. i'm seriously seriously fucking tired. and i go to church looking like crap not because i've had 'strenuous exercise' on the bed(like you do, which you conveniently expressed) the night before with my partner. i go to church looking like crap not because i don't respect God, but because i seriously think God doesn't care of how i look as long as i go to church wholeheartedly for Him. what's the point in going to church dressed up like you're getting married. oh, and whether i look like an auntie or not shouldn't really bother you right, mister youth pastor. unless i'm out with you, which is quite impossible because i don't really like you enough to be seen out with you. BOO.

and all classrooms in the school are going to have air-conditioners installed in every classroom. great. 3yrs in meridian and they just had to do this when i'm leaving. screw you. but nvm, the students can bring their thickest pullovers ever and still have a running nose with their mucus all over the place, fail Alevels and make lailai die from headache. yayy.

grad ceremony this morning. NIAHAHAHAH the teachers' video was super hilarious with violet singing. omg she looked like one of those host on kids' central shows dancing. ok la not exactly dancing but it's totally different from the 'you might as well go work in macdonalds' tone. funny. and she bought belated children day present for us. she has been quite nice lately. something's definitely wrong. i think she's plotting something.

went shopping for the first time ever since prelims ended and bought the nicest shoes in the world! no pics but wait, hao si zai hou tou. meaning the photos will come when i have all the time in the world 38days later. can't wait for day38 then it's just plain mahjong. then will go crazy shopping at vivo city when it opens on 30nov. OOHHLAALAA GAP!! yayy, no need to fly to japan deliberately to buy gap products/ask aunt jen to send them over anymore. heee. anw, i need to get more money. mummy seems to have already started job-searching for me. she got me offers like FILA, working for her beauty consultant friend and some other part-time job. seriously, i appreciate her effort but i have no wish to start work straight after my A's. the only one that i'm quite ok with is the one with the consultant. i'll be like the one who issues out receipts and collect money, take stock, clear up at the end of the day kind of stuff. not that hard actually, cos it's not like people go for facial everyday ma! so i reckon it's be quite an easy job. especially with a bit more money than usual because she has known mummy for as long as i can remember. and maybe i can get my eyebrows trimmed and facials done for FREE!! how nice. =)) i don't want to wait on people at tables or smell their smelly feet like i've done before.

results like shit la, but no biggie. 20more days to mug my big ass off.
History- D. got C for paper1 but i only got a pathetic O for paper2.
Econs- O. did resonably ok for papers2 and 3 but totally pulled down by mcq, which was like 13/30? seriously, my mcq is really bad. sigh.
Math- F. like what's new huh. did better for paper1 though i thought my stats was better. damn. i desperately need a tuition teacher to crash course on applications of differntiation&integration, vectors, logarithms, trigo, functions and some complex numbers. i see the notes i still can't do. especially for vectors. DIE. why sec sch vectors so easy, JC vectors so horrendous one?!?!

you know, i've learnt that relationships can never last without respect and trust. you can love each other as far as heaven can reach you, thinking that you'll stay together forever, but i think it's all just bull. the very very fundamental thing in a relationship is to have respect for your partner. no matter what your significant other has done something to pisses you off, you should never never abuse him. it's not just physical abuse, but also emotional abuse. it doesn't matter how good you look physically, as long as your heart is as black as ink, your boobs, or even the sex will not make him want to stay. especially when someone gentler and sweeter comes along. he may be legally married to you, but there will be no romance/love from him to you. aside from that, i will never marry someone whom my parents disapprove of, or if his parents disapprove of me. really, there's no point in staying together, or insisting on staying together because it just harms your relationship.

like someone i know. he got married at the age of 24, to a woman who is 5yrs older. his parents didn't like her, but as the baby of the family, he's rather spoilt. what do you expect? a young army boy who has just finished his NS meets a woman who's physically well-endowed, and has the capabilities to make herself look good. but i think it's something like dung on a flower, except now that the guy's the flower and she's the dung. his parents disapproved but he went on a strike, until they agreed. really. a relationship can never ever survive when the woman is more dominant, making the guy henpecked and at her beck-and-call. even worse was that this woman flirted with another guy who was her new colleague, had a one-night stand with him, and came back to ask her husband for forgiveness. threatening to commit suicide is the silliest thing a woman can ever do. and commiting it is just plain crazy. i seriously think it turns a guy off. what is really really bad for a relationship is when the guy is stuck in a rut, sandwiched between his wife and mother. it seriously sucks to be a mummy's boy and a wimp at the same time. sadness.

that's why, i have never been the one who wears the pants in my relationship. there's this chemistry between me and the boyfriend that's surprisingly weird, and i swear it's telepathy. we know what each other is thinking, and even weirder was the fact that we got the same grades for the same subjects (except for him who got D for physics, mine history), same score for napfa, and many many other small little things that can make my day. things have gotten better for us now that prelims are over. the prelims have caused our relationship to be rather strained because we lash out at each other every so often at the tiniest and senseless things, but then it's much better now. i swear it's the exams, and i suppose more will come when the A's are near. 38 more days and that's it. no more Alevels. oh whatever, I LOVE THE BOYFRIEND. =)

oh btw, the husband and wife pair i was talking about just now, they're getting divorced. he'll be 27yrs old, coming december 20th. what a waste.

sorry if i bore you, but i just had to rant.