Been studying in school since monday. really intensive studying. except for lunch lah. made much progress with trigo and i'm really glad lah. at least now i know how to derive the other formulas just from the compound formulas. happy happy. :) *sighs with relief*

but then i think today didn't really study much.. reached sch only at like around 10. did 3D trigo then history.. then suddenly i couldn't get any more info into my brain anymore. like my brain stopped working. had a break during lunch, went back to school to start again but i think i felt even worse. so stressed up, esp when you see so many others studying in the canteen too. not to mention something bad happened.. :( but then it's all fine now. went to the basketball court to relax my mind. tried to take everything off my mind, esp hist. but it didn't work lah haiz. today's results no good. :(

exams are starting on monday!! *screams* haiz really scared lah. even more stressed up then last year. i mean now you know the seriousness of things and knowing the fact that you will never have another chance again freaks me out lah haiz. and the worse thing is now i cant get an F for anything anymore. i'm just scared for my econs. and maths. and history. and that's pretty much everything...

but i'm glad hj's with me. he's been waking up early everyday to accompany me study in school. and i'm glad he did some intensive studying too lah. :) he's been teaching me math, which is good for the both of us lah. but then i'm a bit slow..

so many things, so many places i've been thinking of doing and going after the exams. not sure whether there will be any marking days lah. more marking days mean more school holidays [cos i finish my exams on wed]. which, also means that we'd be rushing to finish the syllabus for the promos. oh well. whatevers lah.

just had dinner. damn full.. feel like sleeping already.

My face feels burnt. Went tanning with my new bikini! lol. I can hardly see the outline of my sports bra on my back now. yeahs.. but then the tanline of the bikini on my skin is like whoa. it's really obvious. but oh well.. nobody will see.

i've been slacking since friday. and it's not a good thing. got to really study lah. haiz.

went to tampines mall after church yesterday. saw alot of things that i wanted to buy but then i didn't have the money so too bad lor.. haiz. ok lah short posts. :)

bye..

I'm home from camp! And boy am I glad lah. I wanted to go home even before I reached the place. and i didn't get to see MY hj for 3 whole days! it's really exactly 3 days lah cos i last saw him on friday 12.30 and met him again in school on monday 12.30. i think he's really sweet to fetch me to school and to fetch me home. hees. i felt really fortunate and loved lah heehee. the girls from my group kept complimenting him lah hurhur. camp was quite ok lah. just that we could only sleep like after 12 midnight. activities were really packed. the solo night walk was ok too. actually i was quite freaked out by the fact that we had to do the night walk on our own. as in, walk through the forest route alone lah. but then overall it was ok lah, wasn't that scary.. didn't really like the high elements lah, cos i've got fear of heights. the most exciting thing was zipline aka flying fox. the fear lasted for like 1 second only lah. and the most scary thing was the wire thigy. walking on wire 3 stories high with nothing to hold on to is not funny lah. i tought i was going to drop down and die and never see my family and loved ones again. hurhur so sorry to say but hj was running through my mind the whole time i was up there.. thanks to elton for belaying me though. i was up there for like super long and he was belaying me the whole time and encouraging me on lah hurhurs. :) oh yeah and on campfire night elton took off his shirt! his torso is like whoa.. and i think valerie got freaked out lah. my goodness.. couldn't go dragon boating cos i got my period. like what the hell. of all times. i felt it was really gross to go into the water lah but some girls still did. like eews.

watched many movies this month alr. madagascar. monster-in-law. mr and mrs smith. h2g2. and i got the mr and mrs smith notebook. hees. :) boy boy wants to watch fantastic 4 next. i want to watch alot like love too. but all that after the exams lah. now got to study as much as possible. time is running out le. haiz. math is still ok except for the dreadful trigo. i'm almost done with econs. left with a lil bit of market structure and elasticities of demand. i cant get my elasticities notes thou. my hist is like all over the place. i doubt i can finish studying hist lah... :(

i think i'll give the vball outing to sentosa this coming friday a pass. doubt mommy will let me go too. i think my mind wont be there too lah. my whole mind will be thinking 'i shld be studying now..'

anw, hj is 18 alr! hees. had dinner with his family last week. had cake too. i hope he'll be my first bf to celebrate my birthday with me too. though i'll be having camp on the 8th dec. but i would be breaking camp on that day lah so i guess it's not tt bad. yeah..

got to go study le.. god bless me.

It's the first week of the June holidays, but sadly it feels as if i'm still in school term. tutorials and lectures never seem to let me free, not forgetting trainings as well. couldn't go for training on tues cos tutorial started at 9 in the morning. can't got for training tml either cos econs tutorial starts at 8. 8! like wth. who's willing to wake up so early and reach sch at 8? i hardly have any life now. all i have is the little amount of time i have left with hj after school everyday. it's so saddening. :(

i skipped math tutorial. she's going through trigo3 tutorial. uh oh. i just completely forgot to do my tutorial lah. remembered only like this morning as i was packing my bag. screwed's the word to use. trigo brought me to my downfall last yr. trigo identites just dont want to be my friend. i guess it's just me. :(

i'm starting to get sick. my body is aching, and it's not as if i've been exercising. i cant even go for trainings how to exercise? haiz. i'm feeling so so so tired. talked to my mom on the phone just now. told her i was feeling sick and she said 'everyday go school, no rest, no dinner, of cos sick lah!' she's so right. i reach home at like 8, 9 plus every night, skip dinner cos i just dont feel like eating, sleep by latest 11pm, and wake up at 7am ever single morning! argh. and it's not like i get to sleep through the night. i wake up at least 4 times! what kind of life is this? i feel so much worse compared to last year. i'm so much more afraid compared to last year. i'm dead. :(

was blog-hopping just now. read a few meridians' entries and all of them were complaining about school and lectures, etc. is this how all of us will feel until we graduate? is it the school? i really wonder. :(

GP paper on monday was ok. i hope i pass. star wars was QUITE ok. tried to keep myself from nodding off lah. the school is so retarded. esp the girls. SO WHAT IF ANAKIN'S TOPLESS? LJ was kinda bad. the weather was so warm i had to resort to using weeyang's umbrella. since when did i ever carry an umbrella? but then it was really so warm i couldnt care less lah. :(

i'm getting depressed. i dont want to go for LTC. i'd rather spend time with people i love than go for the LTC. i would be more willing to go for it if we didn't have to do up flags and identities and all tt shit. what's the use? why can't they just have a normal camp? why must we bring stupid things like our swimming attire and re-usable utensils? i'm dying. and the worse thing is my mom still doesnt know that i'm the vice capt. how in the world am i going to tell her? :(

god save me.