I plucked my eyebrows!!! And it kinda hurt. But heck, I think I look ok. Hahahahaha. Oh wells.

My feet feel so tired. Wore the wrong shoes but I don't really give a damn. What's the point of buying nice shoes and keeping them at home?

Went to Pacific Plaza and Roxy and Ripcurl. They don't have nice stuff. Not as nice as those I found on the net at least. Haiz.

Found a purse from little match girl and it's sooooooooo nice! So girl girl-ish. Hahahahahaha. But it's 13 bucks. Saving saving saving.. Yep saving. I want to get it. Guess I'll give wallets a pass lah. I want that purse from little match girl. Hehs. It's unique. :)

Finished studying for Econs assignment on Monday, but got to revise the notes again tomorrow. Right now I feel like skeeping, but then I'm quite lazy to go off. So I'll stick around for a while lah.

Anyway, I'll stop blogging. Lazy to think of what to type ahs.

Ciao.

Diana Degarmo's Emotional

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy, but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional[fade]

You say I'm just impossible
Totally unpredictable
I'm just a girl get use to it
No big deal
You can't change me why would you try?
I'm no angel but I can make you smile
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

Don't give upI won't hurt you
Oh, sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel oh yeah
That's when I need you
Sometimes I get emotional[fade]

That's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

I just thought this song was very nice.. so yeah posted it up. No special meaning lah.

how about this? this is quite common right? 

is this nice? i thought it looks pretty cute... 

wallet wallet.. want to buy wallet also.. getting sick of small purses alreadys. 

And this is so cute right? Haiz.. I'm drooling... Is this nicer or the boxed roxy one nicer? 

This bag is so nice!! It's right on top of my list lahs. Haiz. 

Hmm. I'm blogging at home. Yeah just now used all the time to take down all the stuff on IVLE, and am taking some time now to shop online. Hahahaha. Anyway, haven't blogged in a few days, so let's have some updates.

I'm getting very dark now due to trainings and all that lahs. Trainings are pretty ok, not that tiring from sec sch lahs. No idea why also. I thought I was older and would be tired very easily. Mondays and Wednesdays trainings and Tuesdays and Thursdays got P.E. Wow. If I don't lo9se weight or slim down I'll really bang my head against the wall real hard. Even if I don't lose weight then at least make me appear slimmer ok? Hahahaha. I want to look good for CNY. Today Mummy was just commenting that my arms look so much smaller today. Psychological maybe? Don't know lahs. Been wearing sports bras a lot these days, and I have to get some more. At least one more. Got to head down to Robinson's one of these days lahs. Why am I talking about sports bras anyway? Yeah so, I'm enjoying training. :)

School work is still ok. Can cope with everything. I may get a bit blur during Econs lecture, but all doubts can be cleared in tutorials, and my class gets to learn stuff that we'll only learn in Term3. So, cool. And my econs class is like halved. Guess it's the teacher who can't cope with a class of 20 geeks and 5 total slackers. So I'm in Mr Naresh's class. It's said that he's the best Econs teacher in school, so I'm bearing with him. I should count my blessings. I love school. :)

I'm in Triton!!!!!!!!! Yep. No need to buy shirts of the other houses though I really like the black one. I guess I should save up the 9 bucks for something else more important. But today's COllege Road Race was so pathetic. We only got 3 prizes. 2 from the MJC alumni who were from Triton, and one from Denzil Khiang in top 20. So yeah. It was just so malu I wanted to dig a hole somewhere and hide in it. Triton people cannot run. But Di can. Omg. She came in 28th. I was walking sooooooo much. Eeews I can't even stand myself now really. I can't believe I actually walked so much instead of running. I walked like 2km[??] and ran only like 1.3km. Yuck. I don't like the sound of it. But then, I haven't actually ran properly since don't know how long ago. As in, running in time. Stamina is getting worse, plus we don't run during trainings like the vball guys do. So yeah. Been slacking. I'm starting to regret for not running. Ahhhhhhh never mind.

I've been thinking about someone a lot lately. See him almost everyday[except for weekends lah], and yeah. I think of him after school and all that lah. I don't know how I feel actually, because it also happens to quite a few other guys. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. That makes me sound so much like a bitch. But heck, I don't give too much shit about it lah. But it's just that he's more special. I just think of him more lah. Gets kinda weird-feeling when I don't see him. But don't get me wrong. I'm not thinking about anything ahs. I just want to put more effort in my studies. Other things can wait. Just not sure how long I can wait. Hahahahaha.

I was just thinking, why can't people of different religions and races get together? As in, as a Christian, I can't get involved with non-Christians and Malays and all that. Isn't it all a matter of faith? All religions teach us good things, teaches us to do good deeds and that we will be able to get to heaven being a good person. So why can't people of different races be together? Mummy and I had a conversation a few days back and here it goes. She's in red.

'Are there any good-looking guys in your school?'

'Year1s or Year2s?'

'Anything lah.'

'Chinese not a lot lah. Not much good-looking Chinese guys. But Malays got quite a few lah. I got a few Malay guy friends who are quite good-looking. Very cute one lor.'

Then she suddenly exploded and said, 'You better not get a Malay boyfriend you hear me?'

WHO SAID ANYTHING ABOUT GETTING A MALAY BOYFRIEND? I was like, stunned. But this set me thinking about why people of 2 different races can't be together. It's everywhere in school. But well, I don't know. What is more important is the fact that both parties like each other, right? Why can't we take one step at a time?

I'm going to trim my brows in town tomorrow. Anyone wants to go with me? We can go shopping before that. I want to go to Pacific Plaza. But then I think I'll be going myself lahs. Such short notice. Oh wells.

Got to go. I'm going to study.

Oh by the way. Wenqi: I didn't say that appearance is all that matters, or that appearance is far more important than character. But well, be practical lah. Everyone would wish for a at-least-better-than-average-looking partner right? It applies not just for girls but for guys as well. What's the first thing that attracts one to another? It's the appearance that lets one notice another. That's how a person gets to know another. It doesn't mean that looks are always first in a relationship. Of course character is very important too. Who would want an irresponsible and not-that-caring boyfriend just like someone out there is, but used to be oh-so-attentive and offering to do all kinds of things for you before you got together? People say courtship is bliss, and I raise both arms high up in the air to agree. Take things slowly.

You will always feel that that particular someone out there is your soulmate[just like I did]. It doesn't mean that I don't believe in soulmates anymore. But soulmates don't necessarily become your partner. You can meet plenty of people in your whole life that you can really connect with and you could still split up, but it doesn't mean that they weren't your soulmates. Actually, I'm still waiting for that particular soulmate of mine to come up and open the mouth and talk to me.

And like I told you, you can meet people who seem to have a lot in common with you, but it doesn't really mean anything. You may like the same things, enjoy doing the same things, enjoy each other's company etc., but well, don't be like me. I made too many mistakes and I don't want to see you make the same one too. Haha, that previous sentence makes me sound so old, but well. Take things slowly. It's always better to stay as friends than to be together. Friendships never ends, but if you've come together and then break up, there's no way that you can remain as close friends. You can never remain as you both used to be. It gets very very very very awkward. If only I wasn't so stupid.

Taufik Batisah is featured in 8days as the top 30 sexy stars. Omg. Singapore is blind. Sexy? SEXY? In what f*king way is Taufik sexy? And why does Perfect 10 play the song 'I Dream' like 10 times a day?

This time, I'm really going to study. Got Econs written assignment on Monday.

Oh yeah. Happy 17th Birthday Z-E-H-O-U!!!!!!!!!! I hope you enjoyed the Choc Fudge cake I got. :)

Did I tell you all who are reading my entry that I kinda like my class now? I laugh a lot these days. And.... hahahahahahahahahahahahahhaha.

Ciao.

24th Jan 2005

Whee!! I'm back at blogging. Blogging in school lahs. Sch has already ended and I'm waiting for training later at 4.30. So, that means I'm in volleyball!!!! I've been dying to go for training again for God knows how long. Sir still recognizes me. Wahahahahahhaa. Pretty good memory lahs he. I've got a lot of things to say but cant seem to squeeze anything out now. I feel like changing my blogskins again. Hehs.

Anyway, went shopping the other day. And saw a lot of people from school lahs. And I've decided. I am never going to hang out with my friend if his or her partner will be around. If they make me feel welcome not so bad. But if I'm practically invisible, then forget it.

I'll blog another again lah.

14th Jan 2005.

I've got a new watch!!!! In like what, 4 yrs? My last one was a Baby-G. Hehs. I wanted a Fossil watch this time really, but then my parents chose a Sovil Titus one for me instead. And Baby[which is my lil' sister Grace] got a new Adidas watch. Whee!!!!!! I just hope the sales guy wasn't too irritated with us cos mummy kept getting him to open the glass thingy to take out the watches. And then after I decided on one, he had to take out a few of the strap thingy cos I have got too small a wrist[in reverse of a rather big body. wahahahahahaha], and then asked him to take out a third one after it was still too loose after taking out only two. Then had to asked him to put another one back, cos it was too uncomfortable cos the watch could hardly move. Hehs. Oops. Damn paiseh sia.

And as usual, lessons for me have alreay ended. Only have got lessons for the first two periods in the morning till 9.30. But I've got to stay in school until 12.30. Class interaction at 11.45. So sian.

No computer for the next 2 days. Cos not going to school lahs duh. But it's the weekend!! Yeah!!!!! No need to wake up at 6 in the morning and get ready for school. No need to reach school at the stupid time of 6.50. I used to wake up at like 6.30. Sometimes at 6.45. House=warming at some auntie's place tml. In Hougang. Church on Sunday. Yeahs.

Almost everybody is blogging now. Or looking at blogskins lah. Just one big group of guys who are sitting around one computer watching some movie thingy lahs. So kuku. Wait. It's anime. EEEEEEEEEE. Oh wait, I forgot. They're of the male gender. No wonder.

I'm in 05A102. A lil' more than 10 students in class I think. In history class lahs. I think my class is with the Geog Econs Math students also lah. Just hope the time table is not screwed up like siao lahs. I want to go home early!!

04S401 sounds so much nicer than 05A102. Haiz.

I don't see the point of having a girlfriend if you're not going to treat her like one. If you're going to ask her to be your girlfriend, then act like her boyfriend! Why treat her like some kind of pest? Why not talk to her? Why treat her so badly? What kind of guy are you? Oh yeah I forgot, you're probably useless. That's what you do with every other girlfriend of yours. Maybe you're not suitable to have a girlfriend. Remain a bachelor. Even though you're not a very eligible one. At least I don't think you're one.

Just saying out my point of view.

Oh yeah. Didn't realise that there was actually midi in my template. So dumb right. Took it out already. I hate music on blog templates.

Eh!! I learnt Malay!! A lil' bit only lah.
'Rambut kau macam ayam.'
'Saya mau minum air'
Hahahahahahahahaha.

13th Jan 2005.

I'm bored. In the schoo library again. And Friendster is so bloody lagging. And blogger took so long to load lahs. Anyway, free period lahs. After this is econs. So I'm only left with another 15 minutes to blog.

Read finished The Da Vinci Code. So nice!! Raised quite a few questions for me, and then I guess I'll ask my Pastor soon. If I can find the exact page that is. Cos I kinda forgot what I wanted to ask. Wahahahahahahaha. Hehs. I've got The Last Supper painting at home, but I don't know where it is now, so can't find the difference from Leonardo's painting of The Last Supper. I'm after the Angles and Demons now. I'll try to get Mummy to buy it for me. Hahahahahahahaha. Oops.

Omg. There's a girl next to me who's MSN-ing in Chinese. And it's the traditional Chinese words ehs. Not the simplified ones. Whoa. Impressive. Not like I can't read the traditional words lahs.

This year's J1s are bloody hardworking. They reach school like super early. I reach school these days at like 6.50 because I got my Dad to fetch me to school. And Grace needs to reach school by 7.05. So I have to sacrifice by reaching 40 minutes early also lahs. And the J1s reach even earlier than me. Once they sit down at the canteen tables, they take out their homework and start doing their homework!!! And before lessons start they leave the canteen like 10 minutes early. They're super Cheena, super hardworking, and super nerd. Wahahaha. I feel so mean but I don't really give a shit lahs.

Oh yeah. I realise all History teachers are cranky, and have got a screw loose. From sec school to a JC now, all my histroy teachers are weird. So yeah. My conclusion. We've got a History nightbash at the end of term 2, and a chalet-bbq somewhere these 3 months. And a lot of other stuff lahs. So interesting. Hehs.

Nothing much to say already. Ciao.

All I can say is, Be good to your girlfriend.

Oh yeah. Forgot to add.

Number 1. Today's my parents' 20th wedding anniversary. They got married on 10th Jan 1985. And that nutcase was born on 8 Nov 1985. Cool.

Number 2. HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY ADRIAN!!! Ehs I spelt your name correctly this time!

Got to go.

Ok, blogging in school. Got two free period in a row. So besides eating and starting to read my new lecture notes, there aren't much things to do besides continuing to read and slacking in the lib. School is ok lahs, but some smart alecs in history lecture. but oh wells, who really cares lah you know. Maths is starting in 15 minutes, no idea what they going to do but oh wells. Pray lessons don't start today. It's kind of a turn off for me lahs. This is going to be really short.

I'm lagging. So many gossips in school and I'm like some blur cock who doesn't know anything. But heard quite a few today. Like who's going out with who and all that lahs. This kind of things kinda keep me going. Wahahahahahaha. Ciao.

EHS!! I know who went into my blog in school. All thanks to the blogpatrol thing. Never expected him to go read my blog, but since I made it public then forget it lahs. Hurhur.

Just finished the chit-chat thingy with Mrs Leow[is it?] and it turned out ok lahs. Lasted for only 10 minutes. Would have lasted even longer if I told her the problems I was facing in school. Like I actually have any. Oh yeah there is. That Chem teacher who can't teach and his nosy-ness. Saw him in the office just now and asked me the same thing as he always does. 'How's stuff?' And my reply would be just the same. 'Ok lor.'

My shoulder blades are peeling. Got a shock when I bathed this morning. Was thinking which stupid lizard got onto my shoulder. Hahahahahaha. Luckily it was just skin. Peeling skin from the sentosa trip. I wanna go again, but since school has started, I guess the next time I can go out into the sun and enjoy is like at the end the year lahs. Haiz.

I want to read more books. Thinking of what books to borrow. I want to read The Da Vinci Code, and Angels and Demons. Anyone has them? Can lend? Please?

I want to go to town. No time. Haiz.

Oh yeah. 82 retainees this year. No kidding. I saw the list. WOW.

Oh I forgot to say something. I realised someone from school went into my blog in the school library early this morning. At like what? 10, 11 plus? And there were a few suspicious people around lahs. But then, who cares? I don't.

And I'm suffering from insomnia. Trying to control myself not to take sleeping pills. Been falling asleep at like 1 plus in the morning even though I go to bed at like 11 plus at night. And once I wake up in the middle of the night it is nearly impossible for me to go back to dreamland again. Oh wells.

It's nice being a kid isn't it? So fun.

And damn. If anyone goes to MJC's main webpage you would see my face there. Damn. It's so ugly. Did I say I'm not photogenic. Can you imagine? I'm the laughing stock of me and my schoolies. Almost everyone I see tells me that they saw me on the webby. *grr*

This time, I'm really going. Going to watch teevee.

I'm blogging at home now. Because I had to do the online course thing so I got my dad to get the plus from that woman. But I've got to return it to him after I'm done with it. So I'm taking my chances to blog now, and I've got so many windows open. Hees. Got a lot to say so I guess I'll take up quite a bit of time now.

There's one thing I don't quite understand. I don't understand why there are people living around me who like to imitate others and copy what they do. I mean, don't they have their own life and sense of style-taste-behaviour-attitude-whatever? What is so great about others that they have to copy? Sometimes I really want to go up to them and shut them up and tell them that they're so not original, but I guess sometimes it's quite none of my business. I don't have to care. I guess I just have to close one eye, or maybe both at times to not bother about these copy-cats. Somehow, I can understand how one of my friends felt when another girl apparently tried to copy her. So yeah.

And I've been thinking. About how one can claim to really care about another one when he, or she tells others about what has been going on in his or her friend's life. I heard from my friend about it when she found out that this so-called good friend of hers was telling another girl about what has been going on in her life. Plus the other girl cheated my friend. So what if she's guilty? How guilty can she be when she didn't spare any thoughts for my friend? Is that tell-taler really trying to help bring the both of them back together as friends? Has she ever spared any thought for my friend? This is what's confusing. Maybe the friend is really trying to bring both back, but if one party isn't willing, then what's the point? Well actually, something like that is going on in my life now too. I don't exactly know how to go about feeling over the situation, but maybe this entry will kick something in.

I was on my way back home from Tampines with Yongmeng last night. As we drove along the expressway we were just talking about relationships and the usual stuff. And about what had happened earlier that evening. Well, we both came to the conclusion that looks don't really matter to us, though they matter to a certain extent. I mean, we're not being superficial but then I guess it's better that way. Haha. And also, we were talking about whether we would neglect our own friends after we found our partners. And then we thought maybe we both most probably won't. Not at my churchies at the very least. Because I love spending time with them and that kind of stuff. That is if my boyfriend is not from my church lahs. But if my boyfriend's from school, then maybe my schoolies would be forgotten for quite awhile. Hahahaa. That sounds kinda mean, but hey! It's not just me! It's a very prominent sight for my friends in MJ. Even for those who aren't exactly a couple, but they seem like one. I try to pretend not to care, and I don't want to ask either. I mean, if they want to keep it a secret then so be it lah. And they still dare to pretend to be hurt when I didn't bother about them much when I had a partner in school. Now how the hell do you explain that?

Damn. I forgot what I wanted to say again. So I guess I'll stop for now. Really can't remember. What is wrong with me these days?

Ehs! Blogging!!!! In school lahs. Still gotta wait for the school to approve my appeal to change from Science to Arts. Before that I can't do anything. Can't go home can't go out can't register for courses. Damn. But until today, I didn't know so many students would be retained. I thought it would be just like a group of maybe 20 people, but one look and you'll know it's more than 50.

I'm supposed to have a lot of things to say, but I guess having too much makes me unable to think properly. Don't know what to type now actually. So I guess I'll make this pretty short lahs.