Fly Away..

31 May 2004

Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.

When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I
created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils. But you,
woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man because
your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so
I could patiently fashion you. Man was put to sleep so that he could not
interfere with the creativity. From one bone, I fashioned you. I chose the
bone that protects man's life.

I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him, as
you are meant to do. Around this one bone, I shaped you.... I modeled you.
I created you beautifully. Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet
delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ
in man, his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold
the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it
will allow damage to the heart. Support man as the rib cage supports the
body. You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you
taken from his head, to be above him. You were taken from his side, to
stand beside him and be held close to his side.

You are my beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a splendid woman of
excellence, and my eyes fill when I see the virtues in your heart. Your
eyes......don't change them. Your lips-how lovely when they part in
prayer. Your nose, so perfect in form. Your hands so gentle to touch I've
caressed your face in your deepest sleep. I've held your heart close to
mine. Adam walked with me in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely. He
could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I
wanted Adam to share and experience with me, I fashioned in you; my
strength, my purity, my love, my protection and support. You are special
because you are an extension of me. Man represents my image, woman my
emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God. So man......treat
women well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile.


"The Name of the LORD is a strong and mighty tower;
the righteous run to it and are safe"
- Proverbs 18:10

As you got up this morning, I watched you, and hoped you would talk to me,
even if it were just a few words, asking my opinion or thanking me for
something good that happened in your life yesterday. But I noticed you were
too busy, trying to find the right outfit to wear.
When you ran around the house getting ready, I knew there would be a few
minutes for you to stop and say hello, but you were to busy. At one point
you had to wait fifteen minutes with nothing to do except sit in a chair.
Then I saw you spring to your feet. I thought you wanted to talk to me but
you ran to the phone and called a friend to get the latest gossip instead.
I watched patiently all daylong. With all our activities I guess you were
too busy to say anything to me.
I noticed that before lunch you looked around, maybe you felt embarrassed
to talk to me, which is why you didn't bow your head. You glanced three or
four tables over and you noticed some of your friends talking to me briefly
before they ate, but you didn't. That's okay. There is still more time
left,and I hope that you will talk to me yet.
You went home and it seems as if you had lots of things to do. After a few
of them were done, you turned on the TV. I don't know if you like TV or
not,just about anything goes there and you spend a lot of time each day in
front of it not thinking about anything, just enjoying the show. I waited
patiently again as you watched the TV and ate your meal, but again you
didn't talk to me.
Bedtime I guess you felt too tired.After you said goodnight to your family
you plopped into bed and fell asleep in no time. That's okay because you
may not realize that I am always there for you...I've got patience, more than
you will ever know.... I even want to teach you how to be patient with
others as well.
I love you so much that I wait everyday for a nod, prayer or thought, or a
thankful part of your heart. It is hard to have a one-sided conversation.
Well, you are getting up once again. Once again I will wait, with nothing
but love for you. Hoping that today you will give me some time. Have a nice
day!

Your friend,
GOD

Take some time to read bout this kz.. (",)

30 May 2004

Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.

ok... so now i'm at ferli's place.. using the com.. like dUh.. haha.. i'm damn sian now lax.. sigh.. nth to do.. going home soon i think.. still got school tml.. which is like kinda sad cos the rest of my frens dun have to.. but nvm lax.. used to going sch already.. haha.. and i have to start studying really hard soon cos my mid yr's starts with term 3.. i think i said b4 rite.. but anywae.. kinda tired.. went out juz now.. and saw the giodarno blues jeans again.. been eyeing it for the past one month and i still haven saved enuff for it.. and i think i prob wont get it anytime soon cos it's almost hols already so i wont get allowance.. sigh.. but i'm determined to get it lax.. and prob wont blog soon cos i wont be in sch and there wont be any com for me to use.. so one month no posts? haha.. tt's like so damn sad.. i'll prob downdate will lots of stuff and crap the next time i blog lax.. yupz.. got to go... take care pple.. seeyaz..

28 May 2004

Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.

so free now.. lesson at 11.45 later... juz contact time with my tutor.. den lunch period all the way till 3.20.. cos history tutorial is cancelled yet again.. yeah.. wanted to go out with him but guess not possible already.. things havent been going ok for me for the past week.. haiz.. it's just sad to even think bout it.. dunno lax.. juz pissed off easily by things tt happen in sch.. like during chinese lesson it's just stupid to actually attend the lesson cos suddenly the class will juz tok bout smth else.. and the teacher also toks to them about tt topic.. chinese lesson is mixed with another class cos only 3 are taking chinese in my class.. so the 3 of us are like sitting there slacking.. haiz... guess i'll be staying in sch for lunch period later.. yah maybe i'll try to do some hol hw..

27 May 2004

Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.

feeling rather pissed right now.. stupid coms in the library cant work.. and the frenster is like so laggy.. shit man.. and the stupid IVLE stuff is not up yet.. dunno how the hell i'm supposed to get the info and crap from there to study for my mid yr.. it's week 10 of term 2 already.. but still gotta go baq to sch for one week of june hols for EXTRA lessons.. which i think is totally stupid.. sigh.. had PE this morning.. which wasnt exactly PE cos i just sat at the basketball court with SzeChi, Shaz, Sharifah, Wenqi and diana.. slacking while some of the others did the retest for Napha.. it was such a nice time of the day to sleep.. plus i was having cramps and all.. which totally suck i tell you.. sigh.. been feeling rather cold for the past 2 days.. *brr*.. i'm having my GP exam on this Sat.. stupid sia.. sigh.. i'm really tired...

24 May 2004

Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.

sigh.. now i'm like super bored.. came online cos i had to send an email to my hist lecturer to remind him to tell smth to the history class tml.. he pointed at me and i was like.. 'huh wad?!' cos i'm usually the low profile person who cant be really bothered to ans his qns lax.. yah oh well.. i'm supposed to be in lecture now lax.. but den.. use your GOD given brains to figure tt out yourself why i'm here typing away lax kz.. tt's wad mr pang oways says.. haha.. sigh.. was really upset yesterday.. over family and stupid stuff lidat.. but oh well.. i met my churchies after tt.. amy ferli kelvin yongming lynn and chris.. juz went window shopping and stuff.. den we planned the Ubin trip.. so fun.. the obstacles will be like so gross.. haha.. but i'm sure it would be really fun.. yeah.. really excited about it.. will go down to Ubin one of these days to get to know the area and stuff.. stress free day for me.. yupz.. anywae betta go email him now or i'll forget.. [missing 'you'] |out|

20 May 2004

Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.

haven blogged for days.. juz din feel like it lax.. had my 2.4run on monday, and 5 stations today.. i'll def get a medal lax.. silver and above.. but dunno if i shld like try all the 6 stations all over to get a gold.. haven decided yet.. re-test is next week.. yeap.. anywae i changed my plan.. and changed my phone already.. call me at nite after 7pm.. cos it's free.. and cos only a few privileged pple can call me in the day.. haha.. yeah tt's bout it i guess.. |out|

16 May 2004

Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.

hello.. at my fren's place using the net.. found some stuff for PW already.. yeap.. so bored now.. anyway.. maybe getting phone later at nite.. but dunno yet cos i have to bring my dad along with me.. yeah.. sigh.. really cant think of anything to say now.. not feeling exactly elated or anything.. but really hope i can get my new phone later.. cos my 8250 really cant work anymore.. but it all depends lax.. and.. aiyah.. nvm.. take care pple.. prob wont blog for the next few days..

14 May 2004

Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.

tired.. very tired.. my eye bags coming out already.. look so damn gross.. sigh.. tml's got 2 tests.. history and maths.. i'm in deep shit.. looking for research for my PW.. no time to study already.. shit.. sigh.. wad to do.. i wan go out tml!! i wan watch Troy!! and another movie but cant rem the title already.. my memory's getting rather bad.. anyway, Napfa's next MONDAY.. 2.4km run 1st.. got to drink lots of water for the next 2 days so tt i'll have more energy.. wont feel so tired.. on monday when i came back i could hardly breathe and stand up straight.. Sze Chi toked to me so when i turned my head she got a shock.. she whispered to Diana said my lips were blue or smth.. thinking of it makes me feel grossed.. anywae i'm fine now.. i've been meeting the target of coming in within 10min for 4 rounds.. so i'm determined to reach tt again.. so can come in within 16min.. yeah..

anyway.. today got College Track and Field Meet.. i wasnt so enthu at 1st.. but warmed up pretty faz.. heh.. den shout and cheer till now i no more voice already.. but we still got 4th.. sigh.. but at least we werent last.. haha.. i have to change my phone.. SPOIL already.. money's tight.. got to go church for cell later..

11 May 2004

Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.

sigh.. been really tired this past week.. been sleeping late everyday.. and juz now during chem lecture i was prac clsing my eyes for the whole 50min.. sigh.. i got to change my hp soon.. spoil already.. i'm already eyeing one.. so later i'll be going down to Tampines Mall after sch to check it out and ask some stuff.. sigh.. got redox test tml.. all the tests are coming together at the same time.. so tired.. and i wasnt feeling well last nite.. my voice was like.. a man's.. haha.. it juz felt so low.. yah.. sigh.. but i'm feeling betta now.. uh.. neways.. dun have much things to say lax.. so take care pple..

07 May 2004

Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.

yah kz.. been really mad at myself the past few days.. and kinda sad as well.. but oh well.. i juz have to forget it.. neways.. feeling rather sick right now.. yesterday during PE we had to run in the rain.. 4 rounds in 10min or else have to run another 2 rounds.. it was drizzling at 1st.. not so bad.. 1st round came back 2'05.. 2nd at 4'17.. 3rd round i walked about 100m den jogged.. came baq at around 7'35.. den i was like.. oh shit.. less than 2'30 for the last round.. so i juz jogged all the way back.. den last bit i sprinted like crazy.. came back at 9'50.. kinda lucky.. haha.. but the bad thing was the rain got really heavy during the last 2 rounds.. so yah.. sigh.. yesterday slept really late.. i never knew someone as idiotic existed until yesterday.. juz got so damn pissed.. this morning come sch worse.. history tutorial cancelled.. wad the hell man.. rushed like shit den tell me cancelled.. juz wanted to box him in the face.. sigh.. aiyah.. nvm bout tt.. sigh.. but anyway.. this is the song..

'Perfect'
Hey Dad, look at me
Think back, and talk to me
Did i grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing the things I wanna do?

But it hurts when you disapproved all along
And now I try to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for
You cant pretend that I'm alright
And you cant change me

Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I cant be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we cant go back
I'm sorry I cant be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you dont care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I cant stand another fight
And nothing's all right

Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I cant be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we cant go back
I'm sorry I cant be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
And nothing's gonna make this right again
Please dont turn your back
I cant believe it's so hard to talk to you
But you just dont understand

Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I cant be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we cant go back
I'm sorry I cant be perfect

04 May 2004

Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.

oh yah b4 i forget.. i wtached the movie 8 Women in school yesterday.. it's the french movie.. it's so stupid.. but it's very humorous lax.. in the end most of the women confessed they were either lesbians or they were bisexuals.. it will be in the list of my fav shows for now.. yupz.. it's worth watching lax.. i like their language.. it sounds very.. dunno how to say lax.. like very learned lidat..

Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.

hey peeps.. haven blogged for days.. so sorry man.. but it's like there this dumb virus spreading everywhere and when i log on to the net at home the com juz auto shuts down.. yah so.. sigh.. den my sch's library oso got infected.. neways.. know i said i'd type out the song but i left it at home.. so yah.. i've got alot of shits to say but i forgot already.. blank.. running out of time.. brain cells dying and burning out.. sigh.. been sleeping rather late these few days.. slept at 5am in the morning of sunday.. was toking on the phone the whole nite.. heh. oops.. wadeva.. anywae.. miss my darlz.. even thou i saw him bout 12 hours ago.. but stil.. blahz.. i've got alot of shit to dl from the IVLE.. but no com and most imptly.. no paper to print out.. dammit.. sigh..